Man Vs. Man
She had taken photos in various other locations. She constructed an steel crane on a beach, the waves lapping against it. Not a soul to be found on the sand. She had traveled to peaks and plains and rocky coasts. But they always had to erase buildings out of the background, fill in the naked patches of grass, and make the sky a bit bluer. They had to have a contrast after all. The show wasn’t called “A Spectrum of Industry”. Thank god for those computer programs.
The final show would be held in an abandoned brick warehouse, on the edges of a fallen industrial area where most of the buildings were now occupied by specialty fedora shops and double shot espresso bars. She often thought about how amazingly defunct these buildings were now. How they had been replaced by glass and steel, that towered obnoxiously over everything. Weeds would spurt out of the cracks in the sidewalk, kids pointed at them, trying to pluck some of the feathery overgrown blossoms.
She vaguely remembered the parks. There used to be one not far from the apartment where she grew up. Her father would take her there to ride her bike. The hills were sculpted, rolling sweetly into an illusion of oblivion. The trees were strategically placed to block buildings. The little lakes were filled with ducks brought in from out of state and insects placed there to create an ecosystem.
“When I was growing up we had a barn, and there were woods behind the house,” her father would tell her. He always had the most outlandish stories.
When he died she spread his ashes over the ocean. Even though it was too chemically potent to swim in, at least from the surface it was pretty. The oil spills created beautiful iridescent blobs in vast swaths. She went back again and again to the place where he was from, looking for the woods. But she couldn’t find them. The shell of the barn was there. The red paint stripped off, initials and tags carved into the wood.
The opening of the show was a relative success. People even came in from other boroughs to see her work. She received a fair number of nods, fingers cupping chins, viewers squinting and pointing at the pieces as they discussed them with their significant others, always a good sign. But up against the wall with the lights shining on them, the shadows of the things that she erased were still visible. The hollowed out factories, the graffiti, shadows of them still lingered. She panicked, she thought of forcing everyone out into the street, ripping the photos off the wall and smashing them over her knees.
The next day the reviews were published. She kept glancing at the stack of papers that arrived on her doorstep. She closed and opened the door a few times to make sure they were still there. The most common adjective used was “irrelevant”.
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